Just telling my dad that I'm going to SFU in January makes him so happy. I'm glad he feels happy and all since I'm going back to school, but really, it's the "university" title that he's more excited about. I don't think I'd recieve the same reaction if I told him I was going to a college. Sigh, university doesn't make your life successful just like that. However, I'll work hard to become successful so that I can proudly call myself my father's daughter.
This, I promise you dad.
October 31, 2010
October 25, 2010
June 13, 2009
"I feel so comfortable with you, yet I get butterflies when you touch or smile at me. I can talk to you so easily about anything, yet I still choke and get nervous when our eyes meet. My heart feels so warm being with you. It feels dangerous, yet safe with you. Sometimes I can't stop staring. My heart beats when you're near, just seeing you makes me happy. I burst into laughter and smiles talking to you.
So how do I feel about you?"
..
So how do I feel about you?"
..
The thing is, none of them were exaggerations. I miss these feelings. But I can't seem to imagine myself ever feeling the same way again.
This is my confession.
October 23, 2010
Day 10 – One confession
1. I have trust issues.
I say nothing until I know the feeings and care are sincere.
Phew, I'm donee the challengeee ! YOUR TURN :D (elton jocelyn david)
I say nothing until I know the feeings and care are sincere.
Phew, I'm donee the challengeee ! YOUR TURN :D (elton jocelyn david)
October 22, 2010
October 21, 2010
Day 8 – Three turn ons
1. Mysterious guys. Hard to get, but not too hard. It gets me curious and anxious, and makes me interested in getting to know a guy better. Maybe it’s cause I want to be the one they can talk to when no one else can?
2. Nice smile & eyes. Small eyes are a no no. Bonus feature = nice back and shoulders ! Hey, they’re turn ons. :)
3. Athletic. One of my biggest turn ons. If you’re good at sports or physical activities, I’ll be very impressed. Dance is good too. I love a guy who works hard to achieve something they’re really passionate about, it’s attractive.
2. Nice smile & eyes. Small eyes are a no no. Bonus feature = nice back and shoulders ! Hey, they’re turn ons. :)
3. Athletic. One of my biggest turn ons. If you’re good at sports or physical activities, I’ll be very impressed. Dance is good too. I love a guy who works hard to achieve something they’re really passionate about, it’s attractive.
This bothers me.
Just because someone isn't better than you at something, it doesn't mean they suck.
I guess it's the way we look at things. Some people judge skills based on experience. Some just compare them with others or themselves without looking at the time and practice they had.
I guess it's the way we look at things. Some people judge skills based on experience. Some just compare them with others or themselves without looking at the time and practice they had.
October 20, 2010
Day 7 – Four turn offs
1. Smoking/drugs/excessive drinking. This is a definite. I don't understand how people would actually do these kinds of things and call it fun. I hate the smell of alcohol and smoke, and I would definitely hate the times where you don't remember what you said to me or did because you were drunk. It's not an excuse.
2. Inconsideration for others. Look around before you say something offensive. I don't care if you don't know them, it doesn't make it okay for you to make fun of them especially when they can hear it. & at times when someone feels upset because they did something stupid, I despise it when people repeat EVERYTHING they were just told, and then laughs "OMG HAHAHA HOW DID YOU DO THAT, YOU'RE SO STUPID." ... We get the point. Way to make someone feel better when they're upset and worried.
3. Conceited/arrogant guys. If a man takes WAY longer than I do to get ready or he's too into himself and his looks, it's a turn off. A guy shouldn't need to constantly be looking for a reflection so he can fix his hair nor tell others about how many girls were checking them out this morning. There's a fine line between confidence and arrogance. Effeminate men are turn offs too; please don't call yourself pretty.
4. Weakness of character. Someone who lacks principles, or won't defend his principles. Basically, pushovers.
*edit: Going over the limit, but I just thought about tattoos and piercings. Body piercings anywhere other than the ear, or having tattoos all over your arm and body are turn offs. A small one is okay.
2. Inconsideration for others. Look around before you say something offensive. I don't care if you don't know them, it doesn't make it okay for you to make fun of them especially when they can hear it. & at times when someone feels upset because they did something stupid, I despise it when people repeat EVERYTHING they were just told, and then laughs "OMG HAHAHA HOW DID YOU DO THAT, YOU'RE SO STUPID." ... We get the point. Way to make someone feel better when they're upset and worried.
3. Conceited/arrogant guys. If a man takes WAY longer than I do to get ready or he's too into himself and his looks, it's a turn off. A guy shouldn't need to constantly be looking for a reflection so he can fix his hair nor tell others about how many girls were checking them out this morning. There's a fine line between confidence and arrogance. Effeminate men are turn offs too; please don't call yourself pretty.
4. Weakness of character. Someone who lacks principles, or won't defend his principles. Basically, pushovers.
*edit: Going over the limit, but I just thought about tattoos and piercings. Body piercings anywhere other than the ear, or having tattoos all over your arm and body are turn offs. A small one is okay.
October 19, 2010
Day 6 – Five people who mean a lot to you
1. Mom & Dad
2. Eric & Henry
3. RISE girls :)
4. My protective, non-related brothers
5. Close friends, you know who you are !
I'm sorry, I can't describe how much you mean to me, blogger doesn't support enough characters. :]
2. Eric & Henry
3. RISE girls :)
4. My protective, non-related brothers
5. Close friends, you know who you are !
I'm sorry, I can't describe how much you mean to me, blogger doesn't support enough characters. :]
Every song holds a memory
I don't know about you, but I feel that every song I listen to holds a fragment of my memories. I'm sure you know what I mean though. When a old song plays in the background, you suddenly think of someone or something because you use to hear it all the time when you're around that person, or you use to play it on repeat and remember what you did during those times. Yeah, that's it. Even if I were to forget a moment, hearing the song brings everything back. Each song reminds me of something different. I could think of a song which reminds me of each close friend or anything else such as games, volleyball, my childhood, whatever. But sometimes, it's because of those memories that I can no longer listen to an old favourite song. It's sad when a song that use to make you smile all the time becomes a song which brings tears to your eyes. “Music is the art which is most nigh to tears and memory.” Even if a memory was healed, it cannot be deleted. Instead, we forgive what we cannot forget and change the memory into a hope for our future.
Don't get me wrong, there's a lot of music which makes me smile and dance. But it is currently 3:30 AM and the time for slow jams. I played my playlist '<3' and I couldn't help but have memories flowing into me through my ears. "Music is what feelings sound like." Btw, this playlist isn't named <3 because they're my favourites. It was created solely for the songs that gave me memories I wanted to remember. Not a single song will be deleted thereafter, so the unfolding memories they give me will be unpredictable.
When I want to think about something, I listen to the memory. Yes, listen. Call me crazy, but it's what I really do.
That's all for today's "What's on my mind" channel ! Stay tuned for the next episode ! LOL :D
♥
Don't get me wrong, there's a lot of music which makes me smile and dance. But it is currently 3:30 AM and the time for slow jams. I played my playlist '<3' and I couldn't help but have memories flowing into me through my ears. "Music is what feelings sound like." Btw, this playlist isn't named <3 because they're my favourites. It was created solely for the songs that gave me memories I wanted to remember. Not a single song will be deleted thereafter, so the unfolding memories they give me will be unpredictable.
When I want to think about something, I listen to the memory. Yes, listen. Call me crazy, but it's what I really do.
That's all for today's "What's on my mind" channel ! Stay tuned for the next episode ! LOL :D
♥
October 18, 2010
Day 5 – Six things you wish you could change or wish you’d never done
I wish I ..
1. didn't slack off in grade 12.
2. took more/continued lessons; learn how to swim & continue my piano lessons.
3. spoke to my parents and shut them up whenever they fought.
4. learned more chinese as a child.
5. didn't confess falsely just to spite another person.
6. had no heart and said no.. LOL
1. didn't slack off in grade 12.
2. took more/continued lessons; learn how to swim & continue my piano lessons.
3. spoke to my parents and shut them up whenever they fought.
4. learned more chinese as a child.
5. didn't confess falsely just to spite another person.
6. had no heart and said no.. LOL
October 17, 2010
Day 4 – Seven things that cross your mind a lot
1. family issues
2. friends
3. food
4. school; although I'm currently not in school, I'm constantly thinking about it
5. what I want to do with my life; it's scary
6. tumblr, blogger, facebook, youtube, music updates
7. past memories
2. friends
3. food
4. school; although I'm currently not in school, I'm constantly thinking about it
5. what I want to do with my life; it's scary
6. tumblr, blogger, facebook, youtube, music updates
7. past memories
October 16, 2010
Day 3 – Eight ways to win your heart
1. Make me laugh. I love hearing funny stories or jokes to brighten up my day.
2. Show me new things. Bring me to a new place. Teach me new things. Let me try new food. Tell me about things I never heard before.
3. Keep clean. This is a must. You don't have to dress excessively or gel your hair. Just keep a clean shave, regular haircuts, showers, deodorant, laundry. The usual dailies. It's nice if a guy smells good.
4. Respect. Respect my opinions, likes and dislikes. Also respect your parents and elders. It saddens me to see someone talk back or yell at their mom, dad, or grandparents.
5. Stand up for yourself. Confidence is attractive. Don't be negative nor put yourself down. Be proud of your good qualities and confident of your abilities. Defend yourself when you're being looked down upon or made fun of. Plus, I like a guy who can fight but would rather not do so.
6. Talent. If you can play me a song on the piano and sing or dance well, it will make my heart melt.
7. Be a man of your word. Keep your promises. If you can't, don't bother with promising at all. Say what you mean, and don't take back your words. And absolutely DO NOT LIE. Only then can I trust you.
8. Be a gentleman. Offer your jacket when it's cold, cover me with a blanket when I sleep, carry the heavy bags, hold the door, offer your seat on the bus for elders. You don't have to do it but once in a while is enough to be appreciated. If you remember all the little things, such as my favourite colour, foods, drinks, and songs that I like when I've only said it once, I'll be impressed.
2. Show me new things. Bring me to a new place. Teach me new things. Let me try new food. Tell me about things I never heard before.
3. Keep clean. This is a must. You don't have to dress excessively or gel your hair. Just keep a clean shave, regular haircuts, showers, deodorant, laundry. The usual dailies. It's nice if a guy smells good.
4. Respect. Respect my opinions, likes and dislikes. Also respect your parents and elders. It saddens me to see someone talk back or yell at their mom, dad, or grandparents.
5. Stand up for yourself. Confidence is attractive. Don't be negative nor put yourself down. Be proud of your good qualities and confident of your abilities. Defend yourself when you're being looked down upon or made fun of. Plus, I like a guy who can fight but would rather not do so.
6. Talent. If you can play me a song on the piano and sing or dance well, it will make my heart melt.
7. Be a man of your word. Keep your promises. If you can't, don't bother with promising at all. Say what you mean, and don't take back your words. And absolutely DO NOT LIE. Only then can I trust you.
8. Be a gentleman. Offer your jacket when it's cold, cover me with a blanket when I sleep, carry the heavy bags, hold the door, offer your seat on the bus for elders. You don't have to do it but once in a while is enough to be appreciated. If you remember all the little things, such as my favourite colour, foods, drinks, and songs that I like when I've only said it once, I'll be impressed.
October 15, 2010
Day 2 – Nine things about yourself
1. I have a bunch of little things or decorations which have no use at all but I keep them anyways because I can't bare to throw them out. Many of them are gifts; I cherish them ALL including cards and letters.
2. Music is playing practically 24/7 in my house (even when we're sleeping) from either my computer or my brothers unless there's no one home. My whole family, including my mom & dad, loves music. I search for new songs pretty much on a daily basis and I get REALLY frustrated when I can't find a new song that I REALLY like.
3. I get really shy about telling people my feelings for them. Whether it be love or friendship, I wouldn't be able to say it to your face.
4. I LOVE photography. Just like my music, I look for photos I love and save them daily. I want to develop many many many photos of my life and put them all into nice photo albums. Then I can look back at them all and share them with my kids in the future.
5. I miss my family.
6. It's hard for me to trust people and I can't open up as easily as others do. But when I do trust someone, I REALLY trust them.
7. I love RED.
8. RPG games are my favourite. I love the story, fantasy, and dream worlds they have. .. I want a pet dragon that would listen to only me. :D
9. All my secrets are written in my journal. You'll never get to read it. :D
2. Music is playing practically 24/7 in my house (even when we're sleeping) from either my computer or my brothers unless there's no one home. My whole family, including my mom & dad, loves music. I search for new songs pretty much on a daily basis and I get REALLY frustrated when I can't find a new song that I REALLY like.
3. I get really shy about telling people my feelings for them. Whether it be love or friendship, I wouldn't be able to say it to your face.
4. I LOVE photography. Just like my music, I look for photos I love and save them daily. I want to develop many many many photos of my life and put them all into nice photo albums. Then I can look back at them all and share them with my kids in the future.
5. I miss my family.
6. It's hard for me to trust people and I can't open up as easily as others do. But when I do trust someone, I REALLY trust them.
7. I love RED.
8. RPG games are my favourite. I love the story, fantasy, and dream worlds they have. .. I want a pet dragon that would listen to only me. :D
9. All my secrets are written in my journal. You'll never get to read it. :D
Grave of the Fireflies
Never in my life have I felt so nostalgic before. Although I have absolutely no memory of the moment I watched this movie as a child, I recognized almost every scene after seeing it again. The little coin purse, the little box of candy, and the towel bubble in the bathtub .. only now do I realize why I did what I did as a little girl. It was because of this movie. Now I know where my childhood wish of being at a lake surrounded by fireflies came from. That wish was actually the reason I found this movie; I wanted to look for a picture of fireflies. I'm glad I found it again. Grave of the Fireflies ♥
October 14, 2010
Day 1 – Ten things you want to say to 10 different people right now
1. Hope everything goes well tomorrow. Although I can't be there for you, please get well soon. I love you.
2. Sometimes your sarcasm is a little too much. There's a little bit of truth in every joke.
3. Thank you for everything. You have no idea how much you've done for me back when I was falling apart. You realized I was upset before I even realized it myself. How does that work?
4. I don't miss you. I miss the person I thought you were. Good luck in the future.
5. I hate you for doing such a thing. A part inside of me died when I realized I can't even hope for it anymore. But I love you anyways because of everything else.
6. How did we get so distant? We REALLY need to catch up soon.
7. I would've never thought we'd become so close like we are now. I know I can always count on you for anything. :)
8. I think you're the only guy that has seen me actually cry from sadness. Not to mention, TWICE. Although we aren't as close anymore, thanks for always making me smile and being there for me.
9. Don't pretend you like me. We both know it's not true.
10. You're a cool guy. I'd like to know you better but you're so hard to understand. I was surprised when you finally opened up and chose to trust me.
2. Sometimes your sarcasm is a little too much. There's a little bit of truth in every joke.
3. Thank you for everything. You have no idea how much you've done for me back when I was falling apart. You realized I was upset before I even realized it myself. How does that work?
4. I don't miss you. I miss the person I thought you were. Good luck in the future.
5. I hate you for doing such a thing. A part inside of me died when I realized I can't even hope for it anymore. But I love you anyways because of everything else.
6. How did we get so distant? We REALLY need to catch up soon.
7. I would've never thought we'd become so close like we are now. I know I can always count on you for anything. :)
8. I think you're the only guy that has seen me actually cry from sadness. Not to mention, TWICE. Although we aren't as close anymore, thanks for always making me smile and being there for me.
9. Don't pretend you like me. We both know it's not true.
10. You're a cool guy. I'd like to know you better but you're so hard to understand. I was surprised when you finally opened up and chose to trust me.
10 Day Challenge
Day 1 – Ten things you want to say to 10 different people right now
Day 2 – Nine things about yourself
Day 3 – Eight ways to win your heart
Day 4 – Seven things that cross your mind a lot
Day 5 – Six things you wish you could change or wish you’d never done
Day 6 – Five people who mean a lot to you
Day 7 – Four turn offs
Day 8 – Three turn ons
Day 9 – Two smileys that describe your life right now
Day 10 – One confession
To make up for my slow august and september blogging, I've decided to take on this 10 day challenge. Expect to see updated blogs from me daily although they will be short and simple .. :) Join the challenge with me ? :D
Btw, I now have tumblr. I couldn't help but love all the photos and quotes I see on there :] Not to mention it's another blog I get to design ! ^^ I was looking for a way to share my music anywaayss although it only allows 1 music upload a day. Oh well, enjoy my pretty bloooog :D
http://michellehau.tumblr.com
Day 2 – Nine things about yourself
Day 3 – Eight ways to win your heart
Day 4 – Seven things that cross your mind a lot
Day 5 – Six things you wish you could change or wish you’d never done
Day 6 – Five people who mean a lot to you
Day 7 – Four turn offs
Day 8 – Three turn ons
Day 9 – Two smileys that describe your life right now
Day 10 – One confession
To make up for my slow august and september blogging, I've decided to take on this 10 day challenge. Expect to see updated blogs from me daily although they will be short and simple .. :) Join the challenge with me ? :D
Btw, I now have tumblr. I couldn't help but love all the photos and quotes I see on there :] Not to mention it's another blog I get to design ! ^^ I was looking for a way to share my music anywaayss although it only allows 1 music upload a day. Oh well, enjoy my pretty bloooog :D
http://michellehau.tumblr.com
October 13, 2010
Just The Way You Are
Oh how I wish I could sing and play the guitar like that ..
"When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are"
If I was a guy, I think I'd fall in love with them ehehhe :D
______________________________
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are"
If I was a guy, I think I'd fall in love with them ehehhe :D
______________________________
"When you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and your body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant."
— Lisa Unger
October 11, 2010
Meet Noodle & Midnight !
I cleaned my goldfish bowls a few hours ago and decided to get some good shots of them :) They will be 5 months old (since the time I got them at nightmarket) on October 21st ! They lived longer than I expected YAY! I'm actually proud of them for living that long LOL. Yes, good job michelle for taking care of them *patpat* ehehehe :D I have 3 fish, but I only took pictures of 2 of them. My golden one (Pheonix) was swimming around too much >=( Oh well. This picture was taken when I first got them. Ignore the seashell ..Noodle = White fish with red head
Midnight = Black top & white bottom
AND NOW:
Noodle looks the same.. Midnight got more yelloowww ! :D Waaaaooww~
Aren't they pretty?
I love my fish :)
Aren't they pretty?
I love my fish :)
October 8, 2010
It's a fountain of smiles
For the past 2 days, I've been hanging out with my non-blood related brothers, elton and ray :) Wrestling and double dash on gamecube at my house, bubble world, QE park, sleepover @ rays, windy volleyball games, mcds, and cod @ eltons. It's always full of laughter with these two.
View from QE Park
After many tries, we finally got a good picture of ray smiling, but I was laughing !
View from QE ParkAfter many tries, we finally got a good picture of ray smiling, but I was laughing !When others bring me down or if I'm ever discouraged, I know I can always go to these two for encouragement and I'll be back on my feet again. It's like I have another 2 older brothers, although I'm actually the oldest.. LOl. If we ever get mad, annoyed, or fight at all, know that I would still love you guys to death♥
This is too cheesy. But trust me, I could've wrote an essay but it would be embarrassing so I chose to write only a few words. And because I can't say these things in person, I have to write it here :D
This is too cheesy. But trust me, I could've wrote an essay but it would be embarrassing so I chose to write only a few words. And because I can't say these things in person, I have to write it here :D
October 2, 2010
It's Nights Like These
Another night of tired eyes, unable to stay closed and fall asleep. My mind wanders off too much.. Sometimes I wish it would just shut down so I could get a good night's rest. But it's nights like these where my mind gets scrambled and all the little bits and pieces run through like a slideshow.
I love you, I miss you.
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I love you, I miss you.
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